Do you ever get lost in thought dreaming about when the heck we’ll finally meet? (If we haven’t already)
It’s 1:44 a.m. and these thoughts are bouncing around in my head, which is really cool considering I have work in the morning, hah. So here ya go, Future Hubby! A letter to you, from me, before we’ve even met. Maybe one day we’ll read this together and think it’s just the sweetest thing.
I bet your smile is the warmest there is, and your laugh fills even the dullest settings with joy and color. I bet your mind is full of the most fascinating dreams and ideas. I know your heart is huge and full of love for the Lord and people. Your confidence, optimism, chivalry, adventurous spirit, and (hopefully!) love for baseball will leave me head over heels (even if I try not to act too impressed at first hah).
I know there’s going to be that spark, that one-in-a-million chemistry where we just click, and together we’re unstoppable.
I’m excited for our Friday night dates to new restaurants; kicking our feet up at summery night baseball games; arriving at fancy shmancy parties as each other’s arm candy; raising a beautiful family with you someday; being one of those adorable old couples that still holds hands; and just living a crazy, Christ-centered, world-changing life of adventure with you.
It’s fun to dream about you, but thank God that He’s the real pro at matchmaking. I might think I know what I want, but He knows exactly what we need. And being familiar with His handiwork, I know even before meeting you, that you are already
You don’t have to change a thing because you’re already more amazing than I could ever dream.
I’ll be honest, though…life without you isn’t always a walk in the park. Some days it feels more like the kind of walk in the park where I drop my ice cream cone and get nailed by the occasional frisbee along the way. In other words, life is peachy and I’m super blessed to even be alive, but not knowing who, when, or if I’ll ever meet the man of my dreams is, at times, enough to drive me up the wall.
It can be lonely, annoying, and kinda frustrating.
But if I’m being honest, I’m thankful for this time that we’re not together yet. I don’t say this because I don’t want you, I say this because I love you. Being single is SO underrated! How could I ever truly love you without first taking the time to establish who I am as an individual? I’ve come to learn that:
The choices we make when we’re single lay the foundation for our future marriage.
For too long I let my relationship status determine my happiness. Until one day I realized that me singing, “All I need is You, Lord” in church was a total farce, because God really hadn’t been all I needed, ever since I started having boyfriends as a wee teen. I always “needed” the fun, the stability, and the emotional stimulation that I got from boys and relationships. So with that realization, a little over a year ago, I decided to abandon my “security” and pursue God, and just God, with my WHOLE heart.
Being single has allowed me the freedom to do just that. Every agonizing tear of frustration has led God to comfort me like only He can. Every lonely day without you strengthens my faith in His perfect timing. Every time I start to question my future, He reminds me that His plans are beyond my wildest dreams. Every challenge has only deepened my love for the only One who could ever love me perfectly. I’ve learned that the Creator of my heart is the only one that can truly satisfy it. And it’s through God’s crazy, larger-than-life love for me, that I now know how it feels to really, fully live.
And babe, I am SO excited because I can feel in my heart that He’s preparing you in the same way!
I may not know who you are yet, but I already love you. Proverbs 31:12 says, “She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.” By this, I’ve been inspired to honor and respect you before we’re even together. It has meant saying no to the wrong guys no matter how good-looking they are, surrendering my heart to God, trusting Him to navigate my life, and allowing Him to stretch, strengthen, and shape me into a woman I’m proud to be.
I pray for a man bold enough to do the same. I pray you make choices that reflect the amazing, virtuous man that you are.
We could be on opposite ends of the earth, for all I know, but we’re already in this together. We’re a team.
I know there’s going to be a wonderful day–when God knows we’re both totally ready–that we’re going to cross paths and feel in our hearts that we are finally home. Everything we’ve experienced up to that point is going to be SO worth it and THAT much sweeter when we lock eyes, and God finally whispers, “That’s the one!”
Until that beautiful day (and everyday for the rest of our lives) let’s promise to be so focused on the Lord that He will be the only magnet that draws us together.
Til then, seeya in my dreamzzz! Ha
Your Main Squeeze
P.S. – I’ll trade you the best sandwich of your life made by yours truly for a date to a Giants game someday…deal? 😉
*** I was inspired to write this letter thanks to the book, “When God Writes Your Love Story” by Eric & Leslie Ludy, and my friend, Brett Shoemaker’s awesome blog post, To My Future Wife . Check them out!